Becoming an Adult

As a child, I was always wishing to be a time traveller in order to skip those childhood years and become an adult. However, I reached to the young adulthood, my mind established a hesitant wall because I felt unready.

Sitting and reflecting on my growing up phases that made me realise a vast number of things that I have never been aware of before. I was too innocent and ignorant to educate myself about the silent changes which happened mentally and physically day by day. My cells were born and dead within seconds and so were my mind and spirit. Inside and outside growth was not on an equal and balanced scale. On the other hand, my thoughts were forced to be mature when it was not the right time. It caused me to endure overthinking, overwhelming, and excessively activated the fight-or-flight mode. Furthermore, there was a big gap between my mind and body. I was so scared of those sudden changes: What was going on with my body? Why did I my chest grow bigger while my hip had more curves? Why was I bleeding? What were feminine products? Why did I need to wear bras, that was so embarrassing? Would people make fun of me? How would I hide all of these new development? Why did my emotion fluctuate in an uncontrollable rhythm? Why did that guy, this guy, other guys look so cute and dreamy? What was I going to do with all of these new changes?

The lack of accurate educational information not only increased the insecurity and fright inside me, but also diminished my self-esteem, self-respect, and proper self-care. These consequences prevented me from developing healthy physical and mental health, seizing opportunities, and enjoying my life.

Changes might be frightening and could accidentally turn on the in-danger signal. Therefore, it is necessary to constantly enhance knowledge by ourselves and provide appropriate education to children so that they are more confident to tackle with a few first tough changes in their lives.