Blow A Fuse

I have been recently keeping track with my emotional fluctuations, physical and mental changes that accompany lifestyle, diets, and interaction.

With a rational excuse (I am close to my menstruation phase), I spoiled myself with whatever the brain craved for such as croissants, cinnamon rolls, frozen yogurt, truffle fries with chicken wings, smoked sausages, dark chocolate, etc. Basically, sugary, oily, and rich-protein foods are always in demand during this tough time. I tremendously empathised with all the uncomfortable processes that my body and mind had to endure, hence, I coddled them with the list that mentioned above with the purpose of putting them at ease. In return, they unconsciously turned into bad-tempered inner children. How disgraceful?

I noticed that the intensity of exercises during this period declined horribly, while the consumption of unhealthy food dramatically was enhanced. In addition to those negative behaviours, other people's bad tempers also triggered my frustration. My mind was wrapped up with exasperating scenarios, curses, screams, and violent reactions. Meanwhile, my chest was heated up by a strong load of uncontrollable energy. Overall, a tiny mistake could drive me insane.

To improve this case, I encouraged myself to walk outside, take some fresh air, drink a cup of room-temperature or light iced water, and have no contact with anyone (because things might be hurtful when they came from an aggressive mouth). I did not hate 'anger'; ultimately, it is a part of the natural emotion world. However, I just become more mindful about everything that is happening in my mind and my body. People rarely see me yell or burst into flames; the reason is not that I am an angel, on the other hand, I am just mindful and honest with myself, then calm it down with patience, and resilience.