Walking Through The Darkness

It was one of the toughest weeks of my life. The New Moon energy powerfully influenced not only me but also other people (at least in my social circle). I felt completely burned out, frustrated, lack of vitality and creativity. Sometimes, the thought of inferiority or powerlessness abused my mind which insanely forced me to behave aggressively and cruelly with myself. I could not resonate with my ordinary self anymore. Instead, a terrifying monster attacked and controlled my brain and body. In addition, all of these negativity and fluctuating emotions resulted in imbalances of many other aspects such as conflicts, unfortunates, failures, etc. Brusting into tears, screaming out loud, and a good night sleep were my 'effective medicine' to treat those symptoms. It was not ideal for me to dump all toxic feelings and thoughts into other people. They do not deserve to take over these pains; moreover, no one has enough capacity to handle with both of other people's businesses and their own ones.

It was horrible to repeated the same cycle of agony. The worse part was hopelessly witnessing others' sufferings without the capacity and ability to help. I did not manage to describe these emotional experiences in details, but I hope that it could make sense. The New Moon is collapsing all old figures and detoxifying all toxins inside our minds and bodies in order to prepare for a new lunar cycle. It is never a pleasant process to go through. However, please remember this: a beautiful and colorful butterfly was born from its tremendous struggles with the tiny cocoon. Who else could help it? None, except for that butterfly itself.