Domino Effect

I have been questioning why a little girl, who incredibly is intelligent and gorgeous, struggles with making friends and temper tantrums. Once it comes to playing board game, or having any type of competition, she completely turned into a 'monster'- competitive, aggressive, bossy, yelling at her siblings, throwing things, and annoying others. After mindfully witnessing her attitudes and behaviours, I could conclude that she was impacted by the domino effect. Basically, her parent was frustrated at her because of XYZ reasons. She could not fight her parent back, which resulted in another negative solution. She chose to mimicking the exact reaction that her parent did to her, then poured over her siblings' heads. Understandably, her nervous system was threatened by a 'serious danger' which activated the 'fight or flight' function of the brain. That uncontrollable outburst dramatically pushed her to childish and unacceptable behaviours in order to relieve stress.

Only playing as a witness, I have already felt exhausted because anger and negative energy in general are strongly contagious. I feel irritated by her rude and mean attitudes, words, and behaviours, but sympathetic with her restriction at the same time. On the other hand, I am obsessed with the feeling of helplessness because it is not included in my scope of practice or right to change someone's mind following the way I expected.

This scenario made me reflect on my own situation. My childhood's reminiscence was full of verbal and non-verbal abuses. It explained why I unconsciously absorbed those images because I falsely believed that I should have obeyed and followed adults. Accidentally, I allowed frustration and negativity controlled me like a slave that I had to think and act horribly with the purpose of release stress and pressure. The more mindful and knowledgable I am, the more guilty I suffer, because I know I was wrong, and unfortunately, I could fix the past. For this reason, I convinced myself to let the past go and make it up from now on. I intend to pursue a career or create a project that can help stop these inappropriate adult pressure on young and innocent human beings.