Either...Or...

We usually face up to the sky and complain about how unfair this life is. Yes! How simple it is! Everyone is always having to make a hard decision, and I am not the exception.

We can view this topic through different lenses. The outcomes is positive or negative, which would depends on how you wish to lead the way. Sometimes, I am a super easy-going person, not picky with anything. For instance, this morning, at a European market in the heart of Portland, the cashier asked me, "Would you like a fork or a knife?". "Either...or..."- I replied shortly. It means that I did not care, it was not a big deal.

As I mentioned earlier, life is not covered with a ton of rose petals. Occasionally, we 'expect' to encounter some annoying rocks along the road. We obviously have to accept this rule, no matter how difficult it is. At the age of 22, I realised that I am not a princess anymore, I have to be independent, responsible, and be able to make my own decision in a vast number of agonising scenarios. Apparently, 'this grown-up thing' elevates my awareness into the next level that is named as 'sacrifice'. I need to be clear with myself that I can have either this or that, not both. Well, if anyone can achieve two prizes at the same time, congratulations! Unfortunately, it does not apply to my case. Anyway, my minds consistently screams in my head, "love or career", "family or myself", "leaving or staying", etc. Which one is my priority? What would happen, if I chose this option? Would would my future be like with this decision? Is it what I truly desire for?