I Felt Awkward When Things Changed!

If you had this feeling, you were not alone! I was one of those people who preferred a stable and unchangeable life. Sound pretty passive and boring, right? I am thrilled to inform you and myself that it was my past version. And believe it or not, I have CHANGED!

Every day, on the way to my campus, I pass by a long wall with a printed quote: "Change is not an option, it is a must". I was shocked at the beginning which could be explained by culture shock, maybe? Change is so uncomfortable and it drives me insane. How could people find it necessary? This concern tremendously intrigued me; therefore, I decided to carry out a simple experiment on myself that I selected and packed all my old clothes, which were always my top choices when I needed to get dressed, into a donation box. They became my daily habit that I unconsciously interacted with them without questioning. In other words, my wardrobe was replaced with full sets of clothes. I committed to the 'new year, new me, new style' challenge.

I felt down in the dumps, then my brain constantly searched for what I was used to. It could be described similarly as the 'substance withdrawal' phase. Even though I did not express my negativity outward, I was screaming inside. My mind urged me to go back, unbox, and took all of those clothes back. It convinced me that: "I have nothing to wear and these new clothes are too good to be worn". I calmed myself down by taking some fresh air and consistently refused those irrational requests from my mind. I did it! At the moment, I successfully am transformed and becoming a better, more mature, confident, and positive version of myself. I always remind me of self-care, self-love, and self-worth. I deserve to receive the best and be treated gently and respectfully!

Isn't it insane? This tiny and basic experiment have taught me a lot about myself, the meaning of change and mindfulness. It is never an easy or smooth process. As long as we are determined to do it, it will happen with a fruitful results! Change seems to be scary, trust me, if we could see its positive outcomes, it was worth the efforts!