Low Energy

Today is such a weird day for me! My physical body was in pain and had insanely low level of energy. The cold temperature ate me up. I set up an alarm clock at 6 a.m. but then turned it off and slept in for almost three more hours. I was late for buses which led to missing the first portion of morning class as well. I never allow myself to forgive unpunctuality because it depicted the unprofessionalism. Surprisingly, I was so calm this morning when I was aware of this mistake. I was slowly and calmly rolling out of bed while my mind still tried to figure out what I should do next.

Last night, I read a book which discusses the 'purpose theory'. This idea got stuck in my head during the walk to a bus station. It somehow turned out to be accurate and applicable for my worldview. A majority of things happened in my life for a reason that illustrated what I have been always thinking about (or dreaming about). The 'cause and effect theory' cannot be replaced with any other alternative ones inside my intuitive world; however, I began to raise more awareness and resonance with 'the purpose theory'.

A lethargy start spread the same quality of energy throughout the day. I felt so awkward, disconnected, and distracted from other objects. It extremely was odd and fearful due to the feelings of isolation, insecurity and guilty. I blamed myself for not being in the regular routine and making things worse.

Finally, it is night time, today is almost over which means the discomfort will go away soon. I did not cause any harm or put myself at risk. Moreover, I am mindful about these signs which are considered PMS symptoms. Therefore, I decided to jot down my thoughts, reflect on my day, have a cup of hot tea, and prepare for a good night sleep. Everything will be refresh by tomorrow morning.