When It Rains, It Pours

This realisation comes from my current observation. There were some days when my calendar was so empty: no plans, no one to contact or they did not contact me, etc; some other days, I felt like I was at the peak of the mountain who conquered the whole world by herself; other days, I fell to the bottom of the pyramid. This life will never give you a warning, it just happens in order to have you sit an exam and learn a lifetime lesson.

I was not ready for anything today. I showed up but was not fully present to anything. The fact that I missed the buses twice in the morning, could not answer questions in class, and other friends just ignored me drove me insane. I felt so ashamed, irritated, and useless. Suddenly, I got a complain from one of my friends about the quality of pictures that I took during the weekend. This event stacked up my overwhelmingness. I could not think anything clearly. My mind 'bursted into tears' because I did not know how to improve or repair those flaws. Considerably, I was so afraid of repeating the same mistakes in the future which would ruin my efforts and wonderful expectations.

To calm down, I sought out for answers that would definitely ease my wild curiosity and aggression. After that, I took a sip of hot tea then went for a short nap. In addition, an alternative hot and cold bath relieved all mental and physical tensions which became so helpful. In the late evening, my friend texted me back and let me know that it possibly was her misinterpretation and it totally was not my fault. The problem was solved. All grey clouds were blown away.

It is a lesson for me that I should not make any decisions when I am stressed or exhausted because it will only create more disasters but effective solutions. Secondly, I should have been calmer and more confident about myself. Once my mind calms down, I will be able to think rationally.