Is it Me?

I have had a gazillion dreams throughout my lifespan. However, only a few of them I could vaguely remember which made me constantly question myself. Last night, I had a weird and hurtful dream. I aggressively walked towards an ordinary curvy girl whose appearance was not attractive. However, I could sense how happy she was on that aerial silk. She confidently and fearlessly swung herself in the air, even though it did not move fast like those who performed in a circus. The motion seemed to be slowing down. On the other hand, I was walking towards her while my mind was filled up with anger and discomfort with the purpose of helping her body move faster.

Although my intention initially contained goodwill, in reality, I hurt her. I frustratingly pushed her with all my strength and then wished that would be helpful in gaining her power. Unfortunately, it worsened the situation. Her screams and tears suddenly blew all madness away and my mind became more conscious. For a moment, I thought that helping others while feeling frustrated would transform my negative energy into positivity. On the contrary, in fact, I was just trying to release my pressure by putting it on other people. Undoubtedly, we could not expect to receive ease and gratitude if our minds and bodies were still in pain.

The guilty feelings woke me up. My mind critically judged myself for having done such a harmful thing while my whole body so ached. The intuition whispered to my ears that the girl in my previous dream was me. Unfortunately, I accidentally caused those sharp pains myself. It was such an insanely awkward dream, but it cannot be denied that my mind and body were trying to send me a meaningful message regarding my personal health and well-being.